Time really wheezes by. It's coming to almost 3 months since I am back. I can't say more to all that happened and will still be happening around us. Our lives evolves around the same issues, so much so, we start to take advantage of blessings that comes & goes. Things and situations could be so excacerbated and intensified over time. But still I have to appreciate all those who choose to still be around me and be my friends. No matter what happens, this will always be and never be altered. I love my friends as they are as much as I can. But I am human after all. Push me to the edge & I have to back off. Can't expect me to be perfect & flawless though I put in my best effort to be understanding. So, I hope you can understand my outburst.
We are all busy people in our own ways. Be it for work or for family. Very often we do not have time to the time to deal with the feelings that build up in a normal, hectic day in a normal and hectic world. And yet our feelings are such precious gift. They tell us when something is not quite right. They provide us with the quick, instantaneous, surprising moments of joy in an otherwise gray day.; they alert us and let us know of the love that we feel for those around us; and they let us knowof danger and the need to be cautious.
Unfortunately, we have not been given the focused training, be it by our parents or schools, to enable us to deal with our feelings the way we have been trained to deal with our minds. When feelings built up inside of us, we tend to dump them on the ones nearest and dearest to us, feeling sorry later. I often try to think and ponder about the effect on others and try to lead my mind to a void, a space where I can search for my authentic self. There I will cool down and embrace the peace Iknow will get me transform - back to the loving and caring self. We can definitely do something about these behaviours and we will feel better about ourselves.
Be it for anyone, there's never a point of ne return. As friends we learn and grow together. All's well now and will be in time to come. No point running up the negative atmostphere. There's no such thing of ending friendship. Friends don't break off from each other. True friends stays together. They may be distant but never that at heart.
DaRkAnGeL'S WoRdS oF WiSdOm :
"It doesn't matter what things you pray for - it's always better to pray for people. It's always good to practise random acts of kindness and senseless act of beauty."
We are all busy people in our own ways. Be it for work or for family. Very often we do not have time to the time to deal with the feelings that build up in a normal, hectic day in a normal and hectic world. And yet our feelings are such precious gift. They tell us when something is not quite right. They provide us with the quick, instantaneous, surprising moments of joy in an otherwise gray day.; they alert us and let us know of the love that we feel for those around us; and they let us knowof danger and the need to be cautious.
Unfortunately, we have not been given the focused training, be it by our parents or schools, to enable us to deal with our feelings the way we have been trained to deal with our minds. When feelings built up inside of us, we tend to dump them on the ones nearest and dearest to us, feeling sorry later. I often try to think and ponder about the effect on others and try to lead my mind to a void, a space where I can search for my authentic self. There I will cool down and embrace the peace Iknow will get me transform - back to the loving and caring self. We can definitely do something about these behaviours and we will feel better about ourselves.
Be it for anyone, there's never a point of ne return. As friends we learn and grow together. All's well now and will be in time to come. No point running up the negative atmostphere. There's no such thing of ending friendship. Friends don't break off from each other. True friends stays together. They may be distant but never that at heart.
DaRkAnGeL'S WoRdS oF WiSdOm :
"It doesn't matter what things you pray for - it's always better to pray for people. It's always good to practise random acts of kindness and senseless act of beauty."
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Thanks Ger for the comment U left in my tagbox, I had just saw it.
Life is really not easy, and I am wondering do I still have the drive to keep moving toward my target, I might not anymore. Seem like everytime I keep charging ahead, moving ahead toward my target, it seem like I am drifting more apart from my target.
I really wish to tell everyone out there that, please stop creating problems for yourself and live happily. For me, I never want to invite more problems or self-created it but seem problems are also the BEST OF FRIENDS that will never forsake me, therefore I take them as my FRIEND hoping by doing so, they will really become my friends which will help me and not harm me. But mentally, they are torturing me. Don't self create problems which they shouldn't be there instead, be thankful for what you have and treasure it, for you know, once they are gone they might not be here again, same go for friends. I treasure each & everyone of them, even to the point that I had been betrayed, I still feel the sadness in the friendship but, I had to let it go no matter how hard it is. I don't forsake my friends unless they choose to be. I do believe that none of us want to do that as well. So, friends out there treasure your love ones before they are gone. Once gone, everything changed and it might not be the same old self again. Think twice.
Winter Angel
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