Someone used to tell me (and is still telling me) that she envy my life. I simply can't understand what's there really to cause that. Maybe I am ignorant or maybe I am just not there to appreciate it. Life isn't so much a bed of roses to me too. Yes, I have a stable job, not falling short of attention from people and definitely a character and personality many would not choose to demean.
Still, I am meticulously counting my days, counting down to the day I can lead the life I want. Looking forward to the day I need not see misery of others and being not mentally exhausted. The day I can be enlightened and look forward to the time I can be - "alone". Don't get me wrong, I am not saying I want to be a hermit and die without anyone with me. I hoped, just like many other girls had, find someone out there who can understand me, without me needing to explain in great depths. Just that, at the moment, it just don't seem to be possible. My life evolve around others, just not mine. I just don't seem to be able to stand on with time and stay focus. Simply too tired... too much effort, I guessed. Or maybe, the right one is yet to make his grand entrance. Before all these happens, seeking enlightenment will my ultimate goal now.
When we seek enlightenment and balance, we must look to the ordinary. It is the awareness of our presence in every little thing we do that brings balance. Life lived with one constant adrenaline high after another is exhausting, stressful and unreal. To approach the depth of life, one must be immersed in it. Only in our full participation in the little things can we hope to approach the infinite.
All too often we go for the adrenaline high to give us the illusion that we are alive and experiencing something meaningful. Whether it is at work, in sports or in romance, the adrenaline high is the illusion. Reality is found in the everyday routine of life. If that can't even be satisfied, what more is there to say?
No task is too small. Our presence and participation are what make the difference. For me, I am putting every effort to get involved. So much so, I frequently get out of sync. It's not easy to understand me, not even myself can be up to it. But again, making comprehension of all these people in this fantastic world is an equally daunting task. I wish, one day, I get my fair share of life too. If not in this world, another will be just fine. So, you who are part of my world, be it now or before, read this and exercise some efforts to understand this person here. I believe I do not possess the acumen to be an expert in this area of life.
DaRkAnGeL'S WoRdS oF WiSdOm :
"I claim not to have controlled people's lives, but confess plainly that lives of others have controlled me. That is a blatant fact."
Still, I am meticulously counting my days, counting down to the day I can lead the life I want. Looking forward to the day I need not see misery of others and being not mentally exhausted. The day I can be enlightened and look forward to the time I can be - "alone". Don't get me wrong, I am not saying I want to be a hermit and die without anyone with me. I hoped, just like many other girls had, find someone out there who can understand me, without me needing to explain in great depths. Just that, at the moment, it just don't seem to be possible. My life evolve around others, just not mine. I just don't seem to be able to stand on with time and stay focus. Simply too tired... too much effort, I guessed. Or maybe, the right one is yet to make his grand entrance. Before all these happens, seeking enlightenment will my ultimate goal now.
When we seek enlightenment and balance, we must look to the ordinary. It is the awareness of our presence in every little thing we do that brings balance. Life lived with one constant adrenaline high after another is exhausting, stressful and unreal. To approach the depth of life, one must be immersed in it. Only in our full participation in the little things can we hope to approach the infinite.
All too often we go for the adrenaline high to give us the illusion that we are alive and experiencing something meaningful. Whether it is at work, in sports or in romance, the adrenaline high is the illusion. Reality is found in the everyday routine of life. If that can't even be satisfied, what more is there to say?
No task is too small. Our presence and participation are what make the difference. For me, I am putting every effort to get involved. So much so, I frequently get out of sync. It's not easy to understand me, not even myself can be up to it. But again, making comprehension of all these people in this fantastic world is an equally daunting task. I wish, one day, I get my fair share of life too. If not in this world, another will be just fine. So, you who are part of my world, be it now or before, read this and exercise some efforts to understand this person here. I believe I do not possess the acumen to be an expert in this area of life.
DaRkAnGeL'S WoRdS oF WiSdOm :
"I claim not to have controlled people's lives, but confess plainly that lives of others have controlled me. That is a blatant fact."
~ DaRkAnGeL'S PsALm oF LifE ~
"Lives of great men all remind us
We can make our lives sublime,
And, departing, leave behind us
Footprints in the sands of time.
Let us, then, be up and doing,
With a heart for any fate;
Still achieving, still pursuing,
Learn to labour and to wait."
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